Tears in Meditation: Cleansing or a Manifestation of Ego?

What do tears during meditation tell us — are they a process of cleansing, or a sign that perception has narrowed?

In this episode, answering Olya’s question, I look at why tears during meditative practice should be regarded as a manifestation of ego — even when it seems they are tears out of love or from beauty. Why is it that the deeper the immersion, the more states you meet that you normally don’t come into contact with? And why is your perception narrowed when you cry?

What tears during meditation tell us

– People often say that if tears come during meditation, it is a process of cleansing. What are tears during meditation?

Tears — a positive phenomenon or ego?

– People who practice meditation can experience different states during these practices. And some of these states will be connected with their body — or their system — beginning to experience certain emotions. Among other things, emotions can be accompanied by tears. And often, when tears come during some deep states of soul and spirit, a person regards them as a kind of positive phenomenon.

Because a person regards this as a positive phenomenon, when they cry and are told that all tears are ego — ninety-nine point nine percent ego — they of course say: “But what about tears of love? What about tears of love for someone close? What about tears when I saw beauty?”

Clearly, there are tears when, for example, you have been hit hard. And there are, separately, tears when another person near you has died. Here is a very interesting aspect: a person, of course, cannot tie tears connected with something positive — in particular, with a strong emotional meditative state — or what they call tears of love to an ego motive, and cannot call them an egoistic manifestation.

How can you make sense of this at all? Here, from the outset, it is worth considering the following:

When you enter any expanded perception, expand your perception in general, or immerse yourself in certain spaces — during meditation, for example — then the deeper this goes, the more you will encounter states and phenomena that you normally don’t come into contact with.

And psychophysics, your psychological state, your mental state, and your physical body will react to this in different ways. Somewhere goosebumps may run across your body, or tears may come, for example.

Do tears come to everyone in meditation?

Will tears really come to everyone who is in this place? That is worth looking at. We will see that, of course, they won’t come to everyone. What’s more, the more you encounter one and the same energy, the lower the probability of the same tears that arose the first time. It will decrease very sharply.

This is very clearly visible at personal meetings with people. If you meet in person, begin to immerse a person in some deep state and enter certain spaces together with them, then at certain moments — of words, of energies — the person may experience a state in which the body starts pouring out a stream of tears.

People may even hear from time to time: “It’s good to cry it out.” And there is even some explanation for this. Once again: we are looking at a very specific range. Encountering the experience of certain new states — when you see more broadly within yourself who you really are and live through certain aspects of your real life — you may of course encounter this kind of psychophysical phenomenon. But a second time — the third time, the fourth — it may not arise. And in individual contact this is a frequent process.

When tears come again. The accumulation of the ego system

When will these states arise again? They will arise again if you haven’t worked through and lived through this whole aspect to the end — when some accumulation still remains inside. And this really is an accumulation of the ego machine, an accumulation of your ego system. It is a very clear, pure indicator: when you cry, it is ego.

And in fact you need to take this as a rule for yourself. Some people resist and say: “But what if these are tears of love?”

Imagine that you were wrong: some unique probability occurred in your system, one that is, in essence, practically impossible, and it turned out this wasn’t ego. So what’s the problem? Do you think you will lose something, lose out on something, or fail to notice something? Nothing bad will happen. You will simply pay attention once more to the ego machine that operates inside you as a human being.

Everyone lives with ego. Comparison makes the ego grow

A very common comparison is going around these days. When you shine a light on a person’s ego and it is already clear to them that there is no getting away from it, they always say: “But everyone lives with ego, and you live with ego too.”

The point is not that everyone lives with ego. The point is whether you are able to work on your ego independently of any comparison with other people.

Do you understand the truth of life, the true flow of life, the guiding values of this life, when you want to get rid of this ego machine or not let it act through you? Although it is, of course, also a manifestation of you: it is recorded at the very level of your spiritual system.

When you know that this system must not be allowed to manifest, you will do everything possible so that it doesn’t manifest — for the good of other people. Let it be for your own good as well, but also for the good of other people. And then there is no notion of comparison: “There is ego in me, and there is ego in you too.”

What is the point of this comparison? Look: as soon as you say this phrase, you make your ego system even bigger. You leave no room even simply to observe it neutrally or to come into contact with it independently in any way. This is very important: you make this ego system and the action of this ego machine even bigger. You stop noticing and understanding the workings of this ego-structure even more.

Tears and the astral body

And in particular, if we go back to the comment you made at the start: when a person cries, the “I” narrows the astral body. That is indeed so. But at base, what difference does it make to people what narrows? They relate to systems such as the soul or the spirit, the astral body or the “I” purely in the abstract, with no understanding at all of what these are, and with some everyday, religious or social context in these words.

And what is the soul really? And what is the spirit really? There is just some context, which in reality is simply a social one.

Someone will try to figure out how the narrowing of the astral body has an effect, and in doing so will not pay attention to the most important thing I have said during these ten minutes. The most important thing to pay attention to is that you know: tears are the ego system, the ego-computer. And this shows once again its action, its presence in a certain question or in some related social question that you were, for example, sitting and discussing. It is present there, it lives there.

This means that in this sphere you are unaware: you don’t understand what is happening or where it is happening. You don’t understand at all.

“I’ve understood it all” — you haven’t. Spiritual vision is needed

A person cries and says: “I’ve understood it all.” They haven’t. You need to live through a sufficient amount of time to be in this state of awareness without tears, so that later you can at least somehow come to the point of saying that you have figured it out and understood.

And the person tries to dig further and figure it out: so what is happening to my astral body? What questions are there? And what is happening to the etheric body? All right. But aren’t you interested in figuring out what happens to your astral body when you interact with the ego-computer every day, when the ego system is constantly activated in you?

But in order to figure this out, you need to have inspirational and imaginative perception. At the very least you need spiritual vision to see these energies: what happens with the influence of the ego on your spiritual system and on your spiritual bodies. And on the non-spiritual bodies too, by the way — including the physical body itself. Here you need to see.

Otherwise, what do you want to hear? For me to draw you some energies or tell you that certain zones in you are being eaten away? You want to hear a social answer, a material-social answer, some material-social descriptions that will never move a person toward real perception, toward true perception, toward true movement.

Working with tears takes years

And true movement here, once again, is a very simple, understandable, clear, explicit basis.

You say: “What if I wanted to cry just a little bit?” That’s such a materialistic line of reasoning. Simply a phenomenally materialistic line of reasoning. What if not a little bit? What if half a little bit? What if three little bits? What if ten little bits? What if I wanted to cry half of half a little bit? What if I cried very hard and the tears streamed down? What if I wanted to cry but stopped myself, held back and didn’t cry? Can you imagine how many different variations of all this there are?

And digging into it, reasoning about it: what if I held back a little — did I block the energy? People also say: “Didn’t cry — blocked the energy; cried — blocked it.” These are simply catastrophic, meaningless arguments.

That is why, it seems to me, scientists — most likely there are some studies — will be writing dissertations in psychotherapy or somewhere else and reasoning about what happens with tears if you stopped them or didn’t, at what moment they arose, when they arose, where what is going on, and so on. There is such a tangle of causal events and cause-and-effect connections behind why this happens to you — simply a phenomenal tangle.

After all, you see, besides tears there is a huge number of other expressions of what is happening with a person. You are discussing some topic — and suddenly you have forgotten about it or got distracted. You are discussing some topic — and suddenly you feel terribly grief-stricken. You are discussing some topic — you felt bad, and abruptly you felt very good. You are discussing some topic — your thoughts have disappeared. You are discussing some topic — a huge number of thoughts have appeared. There is simply an incredible number of variations.

And in this case each of these variations has to be looked at individually. Really individually: study it, look at what is happening, how it is happening, why it is happening. Make sense of it, try to truly realize what it is. To really realize it, and not abstractly, somewhere off to the right, to the side, to the left realize it or glance over it. To truly go in, truly study, look at what is really happening and where the truth really lies.

Tears are only an example. An expression of a person’s life

Tears are only an example of how a person’s life is expressed. There are people who will say: “We don’t cry, so we have no ego.” That means nothing at all. Because in terms of a person’s psychophysical phenomena, it is clear that there are states in which tears are extinguished. You need to look at how you really feel, at what stands behind you.

You see, one can break a person down in perception — I am looking at you right now — break you down into layers. Just imagine it in layers. And imagine that these layers are your different essences, your different phenomena, your different worlds. This is a very interesting aspect. Different worlds, your manifestations, and you are in a mixture of these worlds, which act simultaneously. And to look at these worlds: what are they?

You won’t be able to block this, you won’t be able to close it off. Whatever you do, you won’t be able to close off the perception of it.

You can start smiling, laughing, changing your mood, thinking about something else, but you cannot change these constructs.

Some constructs, some world of yours will start to be remade: in it you have changed from sadness to a good state. Somewhere else the look on your face may change. Some masks may shift — one, for example, may replace another. Or a mask may disappear altogether or, for example, arrive. But there are states that are quite hard for you to change or control from the standpoint of materialistic perception.

You can open up and say: “Go ahead and look at me fully, it makes no difference to me at all. What difference does it make? If you want to look, look.”

It’s like in a café: someone is sitting there, takes out a phone and starts taking pictures. There are people to whom it makes no difference that they are being photographed. In a huge number of countries the law allows you to photograph people on the street — not an individual person in the face, but the picture as a whole. And someone else gets really infuriated by it and can’t sit still. Somehow they got photographed — and what on earth has happened to them?

You are seen inside out. Tears narrow perception

It’s the same here, if you look spiritually. Now imagine: your eyes meet a person’s on the street, and you feel that they see you. See you inside out. That is a far more serious state than the state of seeing a person naked.

By the way, I have heard many times, in systems of interaction, when you communicate with people, how people say: “It feels as if we’ve been undressed. Not even just undressed — as if another hundred people were looking at us.” That is, when you feel that your system is open to perception. And you have to feel this. Imagine, you have to feel it. But there will be no tears there.

Here, by the way, the description in terms of the effect on the astral body fits very well: that it narrows, that it is being blocked, that it is being acted upon. Your perception is narrowed. This is obvious — the vectors did cross after all. At that moment in time a person’s perception is, one hundred percent, strongly narrowed, really seriously narrowed.

This, of course, has to be learned — this observation has to be learned. You need to remember these states as they occur. You need to look at the moments when this happens. And to remember each time: as soon as you are in tears, your perception is not adequate. And on this topic you are not adequate. That is number one — simply remember it. But how many sessions have I seen where people cried and then don’t remember it. They don’t remember.

Tears, aggression, closing off — manifestations of weakness

Notice: for many people, having tears is a manifestation of weakness. And it is very interesting to look at this: for the same person, is aggression a manifestation of weakness, or what is it? All of this is a manifestation of weakness:

• aggression;
• holding back tears;
• closing your own system off from certain influences, when you say: “Then I’ll shut myself up in my little house and sit there silently with a gloomy face”;
• an attempt to recreate a good, happy face;
• a counter-blow to the other person: “Then you’ll cry now too. Now I’ll tell you what is really going on with you.”

All of this is a manifestation of weakness. On the whole, a person is rather weak in terms of their consciousness and their system.

If everyone were to realize this level of weakness at all, egoistic self-doubt would seem to them a mere dandelion compared with the real weakness present in a human being.

Simply a dandelion, nothing at all. Simply kindergarten compared with the real weakness that exists in a human being.

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